Went MGTOW about 2 years ago(or so I thought).

Going MGTOW to me was about necessity. Women weren't showing interest in me, so i decided to return the "fuck you" and not show interest in them.

Long story short, I had liked a girl at work over 3 years ago. We ended up parting ways when she went into a new department but we stayed work friends. A few months ago, i ended up helping her transfer to my department and now she sits right next to me.

We are really friendly at work and we text each other outside of work, but I get a really strong feeling that she's not interested in me outside of a friend and that just crushes me.

I let my MGTOW training fail me, and I ended up where I've been before, alone, and devastated.

At least when I considered myself full MGTOW, when a girl didn't show interest in me, it didn't phase me(in fact, it felt as if I had dodged a bullet).

Time go to go back into solitude and hone my training.