Hi there to all here in mgtow, I would like to know your thoughts on not feeling manly enough?

I was raised by my mom because Dad was never around, since growing up I Never had a proper masculine figure growing up and also I never had any encouragement to do "man stuff", for example I had my first car at 15 and I struggled to have any male, figure, friends to help me with mechanical knowledge, and my mom and sister always looked down on being interested in cars, another example i wanted to practice boxing but my Mom wouldn't let me, I tried football and my mom flat out refused, I switched my hobbies to do art and I am currently studying architecture, but everything "dangerous" or "manly" was discouraged, I am the only male in my family, and when recently at 24 finally talked to my dad, to get some sort of guidelines or advice on you Know life, but he couldn't give me any, it really affected my personal life since I am perceived as "soft" or even with females I am ashamed to more than one occasion being asked if I am gay, I am trying to become more manly but it feels like punching in a dream,

I see this in my sister's children since she divorced has made my nephew's fall on this same pattern.

I need to hear your thoughts on this topic since I can't discuss this with my friends