I’m going to begin with this. I was raised in a two parent household, I have a lot of old school values instilled in me thanks to them. I had an amazing childhood and thanks to my parents I’ve become a man of honesty and integrity. They helped build me up, and I took the reigns to become who I became today. I have been monk mode for 4 years, and MGTOW since I was 18.

Now to the bulk of the story. I met a girl, we’ll call her Susie, after work one day. Just small talk, we would casually talk here and there. Eventually we exchanged numbers and decided to get some drinks sometime.

Skip to the date, I pick her up and immediately I’m horrified. Both by her outfit and just the amount of body modifications (tattoo’s, piercings, etc) which I couldn’t see from her normal work attire. Already sirens were going off in my head.

She gets in and off we go. I’ll say this, I’ve had a face where people are willing to tell me anything and everything. Which is both nice and mortifying. The entire day was about 80/20 her vs me communication wise. She divulged about her toxic, degenerate friends. Her party years, Her ex’s, all the “bad” men she’s dated, and even some more horrifying shit I won’t go into.

I was essentially a garbage dump the entire time and I was in a perpetual state of shock. My stomach was turning inside out from the information being divulged to me. Private shit that very few people should know, yet here it is on a date. Granted, she did pay for everything and even gave me a thank you present, which was a breath of fresh air.

Regardless, I haven’t ghosted her yet considering they know where I work. I honestly am at a loss for words. It’s one thing to have conversation. It’s another to unload all your insecurities and degenerate past on your first date. Thinking about this woman makes my turtle retract into his shell, and my stomach rock like the waves in a hurricane.

Needless to say, I will not be going on another date anytime soon. I’d love to hear some stories from you gentleman. Thank you for listening to my blog.