Let me get to the point. It’s the day after a ONS, the condom broke, I pulled out in time (I think), told her to get plan b, haven’t spoken to her since. Never felt MGTOW was the best move until right now.

Here’s the short of it for some context. My friends and I ended up drunk on a 6 in the morning food run and I got “lucky”

I had decided to leave first, since my cab was gonna be a longer ride than theirs. I paid my part of the tab, walked to the door, and as I was leaving, a guy grabbed me by the arm.

“Hey man, before you leave, my friend wanted to meet you” “Oh, okay”

He brings me back in, guides me to a table with him and two girls. I take a seat. The girl is hot. I’m drunk.

We drink some more, as it plays out, she ends up in a cab with me to my place.

Get home, start having sex.

As I get closer to finishing, it starts to feel a lot better. So I pull out to double check. Low and behold, the condom is broken and around the base of my dick. I had been raw for idk how long. I ended up cumming on my sheets about 5 seconds after pulling out - just from the left over feeling of fucking her raw.

I tell her it broke, she asks if I came in her. I say no, not that I know of. So I ask her if she’s on birth control, she’s not.

We’re still drunk, it’s around 8am at this point, and just pass out.

I wake up this morning, give her money for a cab to gtfo my house.

I tell her to take plan b, even though I’m certain I didn’t cum in her.

She’s angrily agrees and asks what I’d do if she was pregnant.

I respond to her with the only thing I can think to say: what do you think I would do?

I mean honestly man.

I don’t want to touch on the morality of being a father too much, but say hypothetically she gets pregnant. If she didn’t get an abortion, I still wouldn’t want to raise the kid, nor do I have the means to, so I’d leave.

The irony of something that “lucky” happening to me yesterday coupled in the way it turned out is just a sick joke honestly. I had never been stopped like that. I’ve had girls come up to me, but never just had my presence requested by a chick. I mean to pass that up, I’d have to have experienced something like this first to know it’s probably a mistake.

Anyway, this is why I tell guys MGTOW isn’t some thing that should be done in reluctance. I never thought marriage was a good idea for me, but it wasn’t until recently I had been winding down the lifestyle of STRs, FWB, and ONS. It had been too stressful trying to bring out in a woman into something she couldn’t bring out in herself. Proving to them I was better than they were so they would want to be around me. Teaching them their games were pointless. Directing every situation. These past few weeks I had been completely cutting women out of my life. I’m telling you there is nothing aside from sex, that I can’t enjoy more so, by myself or with a friend

I suppose a lot of this post is a vent - I’m stressed. Hopefully I’m over reacting, but still, having a condom break when you’re fucking a stranger who ends up not being on birth control ain’t cool.