I started this journey in March 2015. Marriage was in big trouble, constant fighting, stress, sex was about once a month, wife was withdrawn, balky, rebellious. I found some stuff by Larry Bilotta was resonated, and I embarked to up my game. Joined the gym, avoided confrontation, started looking to build a life with or without her. Still, something seemed missing from Bilotta's spiel. So, I kept looking and found the red pill in June, and unplugged.

I strut around the house now like I own it (which is good, because I do). At first my smiles and good humor were forced. Now they are real. I laugh. The other day, my wife was complaing about what a bitch her sister was in bringing stuff up from 10 years ago. I said "Yup, thats pretty bad." with just enough emphhasis, and a smirk as I was reading my book. She got up and marched out of the room in a huff , announcing "THAT was uncalled for!" When I was blue pill, I would have been upset and gone to her to ask what was wrong, apologize, etc. etc and it would have turned into an all day, all week fight. This time, I ignored her, and laughed while I did it. Later, she was sulking and I went and got her. "WHy are you hiding in here? Its time for evening prayer?" She followed me out. No more was said about it. Question: was that a "shit test", and if so did I pass it. I think I did, but I am still a novice at this.