Second therapist, definitely better than the first.

He seemed to be more understanding than the first one was. And he's cheaper. Like my friend told me, he agreed that my parents are paranoid and are narcissistic. And even abusive. Like keeping me under their thumb in isolation. So far, we're off to a good start together. The only problem is that he won't be available until January. I have searched far and wide when it came down to therapists/counselors and it seems none of them will be available until after the new year. So I still have to survive the holidays (the worst time of the year for depression and more interaction with my mom and my dysfunctional family here). My friend online told me that I should use the newfound money that I got from my dad's life insurance to get out of the house and go to a hotel for a few days. Just to get out of the house. Even my therapist agreed with her advice to go out to eat on my own or go to a bookstore or something to get away from the house and my mom. When I did return home today (I lied about where I was), my mom assumed I was in the hospital/ER again. That was because I went to a mental hospital two years ago (my online friend's suggestion) just to get away from the house and my parents. She said it traumatized her (it traumatized me too). And I think she wants to use that experience to keep a tab on me at all times. And the worst part is that many people out there will think she has every right and reasonable right to do that. Everybody in the family will think this way at least.

Anyway, just a little view into my world I guess.