Cİrcumcision: My parents manipulated me, saying I'd be a real man if I did it. I was 11 and I obviously didn't want to do it, I even asked why we had to do this. Well, there's no numbing and you're strapped to the table so you can't move or kick. The pain is extreme, you're being cut off with a bladed instrument, and with no numbing. Your body automatically screams. I might still have a blocked memory of the pain. It feels detached from me. I describe the screaming as "my body did this" but I sure as fuck experienced every second of it and damn it was slow and there was blood. I was frozen emotionally for months after being cut. I started to slowly regain emotions but now I was having panic attacks. I think it messed my stress response because I never had anxiety before. I was still dissociated and depressed years after the event because it set a downward spiral and I even tried to quit elementary school due to existential depression.

So, if you think you wanted your circumcision, you never did. Given the choice, even if I wasn't forced, I still would've refused it at 11, and that's despite all the cultural "real man" bullshit. I also noticed the head got dry and dead after that, just like how people write about the after-effects of circumcision. And I'm skipping all the research showing PTSD symptoms even in people who got it as a baby, along with things like loss of pleasure and sensitivity. The fact society tolerates male babies screaming in pain tells you everything.

Draft: Later on in elementary grade, already given up on school and in an existential crisis. During this time as a kid I was at the same time worrying about the draft, it's a huge source of stress. If you're unlucky you get drafted into some terrorist shithole. You serve for 1-2yrs for free. At the time we were seeing these news on the TV about a recruit being blown up because the commander put a live grenade in the recruit's hand, and my mom was defending it with this weird cognitive dissonance, saying shit like "the army ain't like that anymore!" while we were still watching it. I was gonna put a bullet to myself right before I had to go to the army. It is compulsory and I was already way too stressed and had given up and depressed. You get jailed as a deserter if you refuse it. You don't get hired for jobs and it has all the similar shaming tactics to circumcision as you can expect.

So, these are the 2 major reasons why I found this mra stuff. People who face this type of shit become mra. I might've been another invisible statistic if I wasn't so detached and numbed.

To end, my mother is also blatantly pedo. Not gonna detail, I was mostly asleep or half-conscious for the most part except the times when I wasn't, which is the blatant part. I buried it, nothing will come of it. Not gonna bother since I'd rather not care than create drama. I feel disgust almost daily, but I genuinely don't care and it's strange. This is how men live. Maybe it can be better someday. MRA has a cause. You can save someone down the line if you can make it less shit, I think that's honorable.

Also google search results are extremely biased. So much that I'm %99 sure it's made intentionally to be anti-male. Weren't they even accused of underpaying men and doing SJW stuff or "reverse sexism?" It's absolutely not un-biased. I feel the dishonesty and bias in search results all the time. Can they stop ruining everything, jesus.