I’ve recently lost hope in my country. Beyond the court system (which has ruined my life and my fathers who lost 70% of what he owned in court) I have lost the feeling of belonging. Im not wanted in society anymore, why should I care what happens?

and that’s not lack of trying. There was a time not too long ago where I cared, I really did. I had empathy and truly tried to listen to the other side. I listened to my moms side, I listened to my sisters viewpoints on feminism, and while I find It all absurd, I tried caring. I wanted to go into the political sphere after college and for a little bit I did, but I don’t care anymore

Everyday I see feminist Hollywood ruin another piece of art, I see people filled with hatred for others that goes beyond reasoning. But now, let them all destroy themselves. Instead of crying, I will watch the world burn and do nothing, maybe pop a cold one with my girlfriend and close friends (who are the only ones left that I care about) and let society destroy itself.

I just don’t know what to do, what can we do? I don’t not want to care but I just don’t know how to fight the evil. i’m a younger guy and am looking for hope. will this all work out in the end? do I belong on this society? even though I have a couple of close friends and am in a relationship, I still don’t feel valued and respected.

maybe it’s the youth in me, but my grandfathers used to fight in wars and die for this country, and now we have a generation that doesn’t care what happens to this country. i am a symptom of a greater happening in young men. i have no role models, no heroes (they’ve burned them all down, our founding fathers and historical figures). I need purpose but there’s none to be found.

im not looking for people to critic me or tell im a fool, im looking for hope, a role model, for me this is leading to a future where I unalivie myself, i’m trying to find strength. i love you guys