Hi folks, I’m currently sitting in a consultation room in the high court. I’ve been fighting for the last 7 months for custody of my kids. I asked my wife for a divorce, and she had me arrested for sexual assault. I wasn’t prosecuted for this. Despite overwhelming evidence to the contrary, I am still defending my reputation in the family court against her lies. It just goes on and on.

I had hoped that I would get some more rights by Christmas but unfortunately it is looking like supervised 2 hour visits are staying in the mean time.

She has slung so much mud that it is overwhelming me just to try and prove she’s lying. I have had to trawl through thousands of text messages showing her abuse. Despite the evidence, she has not been prosecuted and still has total control of the children and family home. My parents haven’t seen my kids in 7 months, I’m living in their house, and I’m still paying all the bills for my house that she got me excluded from (NMO ex parte).

I’m afraid to tell anyone that I’ve been having suicidal thoughts almost daily, because it WILL be used against me. I don’t think I’m going to do anything about it, as I don’t want my kids to grow up with that but I can feel myself reaching the end of my tether. I feel like running away. I feel like I’m being squeezed from every direction and like there’s no escape. I can’t not fight for my kids, but I feel like something has to give. I don’t know what to do.