First of all, I would like to apologize for any mistakes regarding my english as it isn't my first language. My issue is that, over the years I have come to bear some form of resentment and hatred towards women in general. I have been in a couple of relationships with toxic women getting cheated on in the first, and the last one being the most damaging as I completely trusted her emotionally and she (through later evidence) turned out to be a sadistic malignant narcissist.

And it's not just my past relationships or experiences; even female friends and colleagues as well as nearly 90% of women I observe and interact with in my social circle/community. They all seem to display the same nature in varying degrees; blatant hypocrisy and immorality. The concept of hypergamy is deeply ingrained and supported where women date men who are above them in social standards while others are forgotten and in some cases, openly humiliated as being unfit or unworthy to marry. Misandry is always mocked or considered non existent by them. A man can suffer and they wouldn't even bat an eye and might even laugh it off (yes, seriously) yet if a woman experiences any form of injustice they would be up in arms in no time. A man is expected to work and provide like a slave but don't you dare insinuate that the wife should take care of the house-work and cook him meals. Only ever so rarely do I see women who actually care about their men in an affectionate manner and even then I can't fully believe it. In short, it's rules for thee and not for me + all men are trash kind of mentality which is actually encouraged by society and the ever growing feminist movement.

Because of all of this, I have come to see women as these cold blooded machiavellian creatures who are incapable of caring about anyone except themselves and MAYBE their kids. My current girlfriend is a truly wonderful person who's really empathetic and understanding (most of the time). This makes me feel like crap since any reciprocated emotions towards her on my part are always half-assed and plagued with doubts and paranoia about the future when she reveals her "typical female nature" and I end up getting hurt all over again. I'm aware that my fears are just that, fears. And that they don't make sense from a logical or religious standpoint but I just can't help it. How can I move past this and grow into a better person?