I hurt. I hurt so much. I feel like I have lost the last three years of my 20s to covid - covid in China, which has until this last week been much much worse than covid anywhere else.

I thought I could trust him. I still want him back. I feel like I will never get anyone else that is a quality high value man ever again.

I feel like at 30, I am too old, my n count is too high, I am not attractive enough and not thin enough to be taken seriously for anything more than friendship, a short term relationship or as a friend with benefits.

Anyone got any words of wisdom?