Background: I’ve been in nun mode on & off for about a year and a half (excluding 4 months I dated someone). This was after a break up with a man I truly loved, and I knew I’d need time to work on myself before attempting to move on in my romantic life.

During this time, I’ve read, meditated, and worked both in and out in cultivating a femininity that has made me so happy. I lost 15 lbs, began grad school, and got back into old hobbies. But every time I consider going back on dating apps etc, I’m so overwhelmed and feel like I can never find the type of leader I need.

I’m 25 and terrified to keep letting the time slip away. I want to give the so-called “best years of my life” to the person I’m going to spend the rest of my life with, but- I don’t know how to make myself feel ready. If anyone’s been in the same boat and has advice it would be greatly appreciated.