Hello all, dumped after a 9 year relationship (no marriage). We've got kids. I'm not gonna get into the details of the breakup. I recently beat depression as well.

I read models and the power of habit. I decided my keystone habit is getting up at 530 to work out. This has been awesome. It's only been 2 weeks but I am feeling very good.

I had zero friends, so I reconnected with 2 people and that has been going well.

I'm going to go back to school for a computer science degree. I worked in the oilfield for a long time and I have no skills that apply anywhere else.

I have no hobbies other than being the varsity offensive coordinator at my local HS football program, which takes up a good chunk of my year. I'm not sure what direction to go hobby wise. I live an hour and a half from a city. I've never been much of an outdoorsman. Thinking about picking up an instrument? I ordered 2 harmonicas and will see if I can learn that with my son.

I think this is probably bad mindset but I really need to get laid. It's been almost a decade since I've fucked someone else. We had a pretty good sex life but I am a sex twice a day kind of person and she was an every other day kind of girl. That created some friction. We were heavy into BDSM as well. Consensual non consensual, breathplay, impact play. I've been learning rope play as well with the intention of traveling to munches (BDSM get togethers)

I would describe myself as an extrovert with a lot of social anxiety. Especially in groups of more than 4.

Getting over the breakup has been tough. I have been telling myself that I got her prime years, she's a good mom, and now I will get to spend my prime years pursuing my own goals and banging hot young chicks, while still getting children I love. But I'm not sure if I believe myself.

I don't have the kids this weekend and I would like to go out with the intention of getting laid. Seriously considering telling every women I see at the bar/casino "I'm looking to get laid tonight, should I sit down or move on?"

Thoughts? I'm a good bull shitter but I don't have too much interesting shit to talk about. 5 years of depression and only recently having that fog lifted makes me feel like I don't really even know myself. Honestly the only 2 things I know I like for sure are football and kinky sex.

I'm probably a 5 on the looks scale. I have no style. Working out has shown quick gains though. I was fucking ripped in high school.

This was quite a ramble, been thinking of posting for a couple weeks now. Probably left some shit out too.