Recently I went out with my LTR for a day-long party. We had a good time, I was doing all the right stuff and she was all about it. She was clearly expecting that when we got home we'd have an all night fuck fest. Near the end of the party I start getting a nasty headache (we've been at this party for like 11 hours). She's reasonably drunk at this point, I've just been drinking light beer so I'm only buzzed. On our way back to my place she says she wants to go out for more drinks. She's in that giggly-drunk mode at this point. I've seen it plenty of times before (we've been dating for well over 5 years). Basically it means she's going to get black out drunk and throw herself at someone. Usually it's me, obviously, but on the rare occasion where I'm not being "fun" she'll throw herself at someone else. We ended up going back to my place despite her attempts to get me to take her out to a bar (I was totally beat at this point). We get back to my house and she fucking blows up. You'd think I had cheated on her or something, considering how mad she was. She was basically on the verge of breaking up. Mind you I wasn't mean to her or anything, I just tried to maintain amused mastery, but it's hard when you head is about to split open and all you want to do is sleep while this nagging bitch won't stfu. I guarantee you that if we had been out instead of at home, she would have found some random dude and thrown herself at him. And remember, this isn't some 6 month extended fling. Most people would be married at this point.

The last time this happened (she was in drunk-fun mode and I wasn't feeling it) she chatted up some ex-coworker at the juke box while I went and did my own thing. She must have given him her number at some point because later on she got a text from him saying something along the lines of, "I know you have a boyfriend but if you ever want to hook up call me." If I ever see that retard again... Anyways, she showed me that shit, apologized, and then I fucked her.

At all other times she's totally devoted to me and our relationship. If I was any dumber I would definitely have married her at this point. But every once in a while (maybe once a year) she shows me that while her connection to me is strong, it's entirely dependent on my utility to her. If I lose my job, if I fail to be fun, if I don't provide enough value, she'll move on and then blame me for it. Don't fool yourselves men, women have absolutely no memory for loyalty. If you get sick, lose your job, get depressed, or in some other way lose value to her, you're done. Always be looking for the next thing no matter how committed you are. The worst thing that can happen is you get complacent in your relationship, let your SMV decline, and then get dumped with hardly any prospects.

As for my girl, she blew me in the AM and then spent the rest of the weekend trying to make it up to me. I'm still pissed though and I'm gonna dread her a bit so she gets the point. Although I don't think any amount of dread can beat AWALT because for dread to work she has to see you as having value, and this kind of AWALT behavior kicks in when you lose value to her. \shrug