I dated a girl for 1 year and 5months when I was 18. My friends at the time constantly told me that I was a stepping stone for her to get over her ex and that she did'nt love me as i loved her. Now, I was quite a playboy and I think i cheated close to 9 different times (some one nighters- some not ). We never had sex, she would'nt even let me finger her nor suck my dick and she would say things like ''if you need to get 'it'', you can get it elsewhere. This wasn't a conscious motive for me to cheat, i genuinely just thought I could sleep with other girls and get away with it. Eventually I was caught (I slept with a distant friend of her older sister) and she ended it. We tried to get back against the advice of my friends who really thought she was using me and luckily it didn't work. I would buy her all sorts of gifts, flowers etc so much but she was really disrespectful and spoke to me on her own watch and would always sideline me for her friends.

Now I went through a period of depression where I thought I was dick for cheating on her and that i really let a good girl go and that I broke her heart and all sorts of things. Now 4 years later having discovered TRP,abundance mentality and the many lessons my life has changed in all respects besides this one aspects - i still think of her. I do feel however that my biggest fuckup was not ending it early and sensing that the relationship was one-sided and that I was a cushion. She has a single mom, I would pick her siblings from school, always buy gifts and all sorts, morning texts and everything Beta you can imagine. My biggest mistake was not being in possession of TRP then.

It sometimes really fucks with me that I have the audacity to feel guilty but what would you RP (ers) assess from the situation?