TLDR: Went out and approached. Called a girl jizz, her name was Jess. Laughing and having fun the whole day. Approached this girl who liked me. Thinking with my dick instead of my brain. I fucked up the instant-date. Feeling like a dumbass.

Today...today was interesting day. Chest and back today at the gym. Hit a PR in my flat, incline, and decline bench. Hit a PR rep for RPT dumbbell flat and incline bench. Endorphin were kicking in, good music, feeling great about myself. Headed off to go approach after.

Went to the same area as yesterday. Approached a few, saw this girl with a bow tie on her wool hat. Went up and started talking to her. It wasn't going anywhere and can tell she was a bit comfortable. Asked her what her name was, she said Jess but I couldn't hear her.

*Salted_Pretzel: What's your name? My name is Salted_Pretzel

Jess: Jess

Salted_Pretzel: Jizz?

Jess:.....No, Jess.*

I left on my own terms but I was laughing so hard when I went into a Duane Reade. I'm still laughing as I write this. I called her fucking jizz. I was laughing the whole day. Rejections didn't bother me that much today. I was amusing my self. Even though I got one number today I was having fun.

It was cold today. Super windy and chilly. It was kinda difficult meeting the girls that I'm attracted to. I approached though but towards the end I was just wasting time, walking around. Towards the evening my approach anxiety was getting the best of me.

As I was heading home I approached this cute Asian girl. We were talking for a good ten minutes. During those ten minutes I was focusing on my eye contact. It was great. I can really feel the intensity. My voice projection was on point today so I didn't have to worry about it. I got her number and walked her towards the end of the block.

We were about to parts ways until I told myself; "Fuck it, lets see if I can get an instant date with her." Turns out I did. As we were walking to a Starbucks she told me no one approached her like that ever. It made me feel great about myself. She then told me that she liked this guy over tinder but all he wanted was to hookup. We talked and I straight up asked if she wanted to go out on a date with me. She said yes and we plan to go out after Thanksgiving.

So I took her to the coffee shop and god she looked gorgeous. She was kinda ditsy but it was whatever. I made sure to sit next to her as opposed to in front of her so I can kino. The kino part was great. I'm really starting to get comfortable with touching. I was touching her on her forearm, shoulder, knee and her thigh(Not to far up, haha). She didn't mind as she didn't pull away or anything. Eye contact was there as well as smiling.

My conversation skills need work though as the conversation was dying out and I was asking her way to many questions. She was giving me some close ended responses, not much I can do.

Here is when things started to fall apart. At this point I was thinking "Wow this girl is so into me, let me see If I can go further" Horrible, horrible idea. I was thinking with my dick not with my head(haha). I complimented on her beauty, which was a no-no. I was getting needy. I couldn't control it, the inner beta chode took over. I lost all control. She had to leave to study for her math test. I then asked her the most neediest fucking retarded thing ever.

"Hey...ugh I know we just met but let's make out?."

LET'S MAKE OUT!? WHAT THAT FUCKING FUCK?!?!?!? I mentally punched myself after I head myself say that. I'm fucking stupid and retarded. A raisin is smarter than me. I can feel her attraction, dissolving. I fucked up. After we parted ways I felt so mad. I was mad at myself for fucking it up. It's was a basketball game. It was a blowout. I was winning by 40 points. I took it easy. The other team caught up and they won. That's how I felt. I'm so disappointed with myself. I wanted to scream and punch a wall. A girl actually liked me and I fucked it up by being needy. I hope anyone who reads this don't do what I did. Fuck me.