I've been dating my girlfriend for 9 months now. And long story short, I've let my frame drop and started taking the shit tests personally. I'm higher on the SMV than her, plus I'm younger. Which both seem to have factored in to a higher than usual amount of shit tests. I'm good at handling them. Enjoy it even to an extent. I feel like the more I face the better it would make me.

Recently her shit tests have become more frequent. A bit more personal, more like a mixture 'playful' criticisms and just flat out criticisms. I started to notice they where bothering me which put me in a worse mood. Realising I was starting to drop. Then today in the car she commented on me swearing at some cunt that was stopped in the middle of the road, that I swear to much and should stop blah blah blah. I assume I just had a look of defeat. I saw her notice it. She said something along the lines "I think your sensitive sometimes, I don't want to upset you". I almost threw up in my mouth. I feel shame. Like an alcoholic relapsing and having a drink. Of course she knows that I have strong views on men, women and masculinity in general. I'm not sure weather she was being genuine or prodding me more.

I must return to the man I once was, this isn't right and I know better. I need words of wisdom and encouragement to help me back on the path. thank you brothers.