Anything that you obtain in life is either genuinely deserved or inevitably fleeting.

Which is why you should not delegate all of the important work that you are subjected to. Also why you must go for the 9 first.

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That 9 that you scored years ago: you were never going to lock her down. Does not happen.

The actual reason? She is out or your league. Or put more accurately she is out of your mental league. Which is why you cannot forget about her.

But you haven't extracted nothing out of her.

In fact, you now have something that is extremely meaningful and far more valuable for you as a man — a man whose passion for life is burning: you have gotten an appetite.

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There is a latin saying: in medio stat virtvs

That virtuous medium that you're after, that position at the top of the ROI gaussian bell of power that means everything to you: that, my friend, is not the 9 that you know for a fact is above your league and therefore never going to be faithful to you.

She is the 5 or the 6 who gets obsessed with you. The 7 perhaps. The one you want a committed LTR with. The one who is going to maintain you in the right position to thrive and feel at your best all the time. The pet monkey on your shoulder who will allow you to go for the kill every morning, not worrying wether you will transcend the fragile hurt bitch that's not you. Because you know will.

You are whole. You are unstoppable. She is the right one for you. The one that you deserve.

You will now get her to deeply fall in love with you and do everything for you without ever being at risk of being contempt. Which is why she is falling for you in the first place.

Contentment is key. It is to be avoided at all cost. Because being contempt tells.

The good news is not being contempt also tells.

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The truth is paradoxical. Because of course you love your girl. How could you not?

She gives you enthusiastic slobbery heads and lovely massage without you asking. She cooks for you. Surprises you every other day and will also do anything that you ask. You cannot imagine your life without her.

Yet you can't ever feel completely fed.

Because you know deep down that she is not the best that you can get.

And what you know you cannot unlearn.

It tells.

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Yes the 9 was better. Physically.

Those massive, perfectly shaped juicy tits you were screwing and cumming onto. Those small feminine white arms that you were toying with. Those sextapes that you cannot stop masturbating to. Even those beautiful chartreuse eyes that you wanted to pass on to your offsprings.

You are still fighting for those and it shows in everything that you do and do not do. The way you behave, the intention in your voice, the attention you give and give not to your LTR. Your inability to get clingy or give too much of you.

You are convinced that you are worthy of more.

You know it. She knows it. It's out there.

And it's all that matters.