No seriously there is no appeal for me anymore. Recently a man who i thought was super attractive for the past 2 years messaged me saying how pretty he thought i was bla bla bla. I felt an ego boost but nothing else. I had no urge to keep the conversation going or get to know him. I did not care.

I hate the process of getting to know someone (especially in the pandemic its so fucking lame). I hate having to vet men. I hate having to ask all these questions and play detective to find out if they’re a decent fucking person. I have never been in love or in a real relationship and I am sick of kissing men who do not love me and I do not love them. I want a genuine loving companion but I am absolutely not willing to go through the chore of dating. It is so spiritually draining i hate it so much.

Ive made a deal to simply quit talking to men in any borderline romantic context for the next 3 years at least. I am in my very early 20s fyi.

Any other women on the same boat?