Women throughout history have been raped or assaulted. We pretend the situation is better now, that we can speak up, that we have a voice. But, the truth is you will be abandoned. Putting aside the very explicitly women hating men and women out there, even people you would assume would be with you will abandon you. People who scream your body your choice say this all in theory alone. Reality of speaking out is rejection. Rejection by institutions and the law. But even more so…rejection from the people you believed would be with you. For some, its too much to handle. For most, their loyalties and the idea of “fairness” to both parties outweigh your well being. As a woman, you are disposable and if you do not align with men you will be disposed.

The greatest rejection came from the people who in the moment you spoke out comforted you. The abandonment is slow. You may not realize its happening. You feel cared for and hopeful. Until months later you feel distant and dont know why or you see how they behave about news of a different story. It has all broken me down and cemented that I only have myself. We are nowhere near a world safe for us to speak up in.