We dated 1.5 years and in the beginning everything was great in fact he loved bombed me. Within 4 dates he introduced me to his best friends, 4months of dating I was introduced to his entire family and he saw mine all within 2 months( he leaded everything). We got committed very quickly and told me he loved me within 3 months in which he kind of forced me to say to.

Soon as I got attached within 8 months or so, he started to distance, push away saying we are not compatible. We took a few days apart and comes back saying he loves me and wants to work on things. However the twist is he wanted me to change and completely change. Told me I wasn't smart enough and wanted me to become better at all sports he is good at, better in finance, houses, cars etc... the stupid me thought I needed to change for us to get better. However the more I got better he kept saying it wasn't enough. In that process I lost myself.

Then the BU- his mental state started to drain and he got diagnosed with depression. I convinced him to try therapy because he was still suffering from a past relationship where he claims his ex traumatized him. I did my all, tried my best but he was drifting more and more and had to accept the bu( he initiated). Then as soon as I agree to it he goes, "I'll be honest. I'm still broken from my ex for leaving me for someone better so I projected my insecurities onto you" he wanted to work on his trauma so I walked away broken into pieces.

3 months later- I send him a closure letter telling him how much I lost myself then he responds 3 weeks later indirectly "apologizing" telling me he sees my worth and that I never deserved him and because of me he is able to now see that all his actions were from his trauma

I'm sitting here being like where is my apology???