I've been with an amazing man for 5 years and yet I'm not happy. He shares all my morals in life, he's consistent and loving, always makes me feel special and lets me know I'm his priority. The only problem is we've been together for all this time and he's not proposed and we don't live together. He also said he "forgot" to date me after we had multiple arguments about it.

I feel awful because I should be happy with him. Yet every man I talk to I get so attached to in a short space of time and it's honestly pathetic. I was talking to one guy online and was starting to get attached and now I can sense him pulling away and my anxious attachment is getting so triggered. It's so wrong, and unfair on my boyfriend. I don't know whether to blame my childhood trauma or if I secretly have BPD or something. I just feel really pathetic. I love my boyfriend so much as a person, I have no idea why I'm not happy.