Been with her for 5 years. We live together. Both invested a lot of time. Her way more than me in this. I am a recovering addict. And since getting clean I realize I have a lot of work on myself to do.

It’s very hard to do it with her always there. I know I’m coming up short and I honestly have lost interest in the relationship. I don’t do anything for her. I have no drive to. I like it the most when she’s at work. And I am constantly allowing her to get on my nerves. Like I said I have a lot of things to work on with in myself.

At times I think it’s best if I just leave. Other time I think I will be making a grave mistake.

I tried telling her today that I think we should move into separate places once our lease is it. I tried explain how I was feeling her (yea I’m a faggot. Whatever I been emotionally invested with her for 5 years. I’m not going to just say. I can’t do this anymore and ignore her)

She’s crying. I’m out walking. Every time I think I want to leave and I go to talk about it with her. I have this huge I’m not sure pop into my brain. I know you guys can’t tell me whether to stay or go.

But why is it so hard. I wouldn’t say it’s oneitis bc I have 2 other girls on the side I can fuck whenever but I honestly don’t have any drive for that. Also I worry about where I will go. Where I will keep all my shit. What I’m making at the moment is going to be tough to afford a place on my own and my rents live really far away.

Any advice from guys who left like this?