i was in an ltr for a year. we just recently broke up. in the beginning, she was all over me like no girl has been before - always texting and calling me first, making plans, sex 3-4 times a day. i was a dog. even when we were “exclusive” i was going out with other girls and she even saw one time. i just didn’t care. she always called me the biggest fuckboy. about 3 months into the relationship we started having little arguments here and there, normal stuff. i read into trp and learned about being stoic and a rock, setting boundaries etc. although i wasn’t great at it, i was learning. me and my ltr would be with each other almost every day (mistake 1). but that didnt matter to us. as long as i. had fun together thats all that mattered to me. we would make funny games up and act childish around each other, sometimes even during sex when we felt a strong bond in the moment. things like that made us more attached. we would always plan trips together, cancel plans to do fun stuff together and go to our favorite places and secret spots, have sex in different places.

anyways, about 6-7 months into the relationship the sex kind of went down to maybe like 2-3 times a week with a few bjs here and there but it wasnt a problem i figured it was normal. her attitude started to change a little, more disrespect and i studied trp more and tried hard to punish and act accordingly but i suppose i just wasnt that good at it. my frame started to crumble a bit. 8 months into the relationship and sex went down to like 1-2 times a week and i was pissed. dread did not really work because she would start problems and accuse me of cheating and stuff. and last week we got into an argument about a girl that texted me randomly, my ltr was trying to make a scene in the restaurant but no explaining or calming her would diffuse the situation. she thought i was cheating on her.

eventually the argument got big because i was upset as well and didn’t have my own car to drive home with because we carpooled together, and the next day when i tried to talk to her she said she didn’t want to talk to me. so i blocked her on everything assuming it was over, and we didn’t talk for 5 days after that. instead of waiting for her to come back I texted her because i felt like she was not going to come back in order to fix things but she was ice cold said she did not want to talk to me and that we couldn’t be together because it was dangerous for us. she said she hopes i wouldn’t hate her and that maybe down the road we can try again, but i said i couldn’t do that if she hooks up with anyone else. she seemed to not care and that was it. i blocked her in everything and told her i just cant see our pictures anywhere because it got to me and i wished her the best of luck and happiness in whatever she chooses but she didn’t respond.

this girl was obsessed with me and everyone around me saw that. now shes gone cold and its as if all our jokes and secret spots and all that gay shit and bond doesn’t matter or exist to her anymore. its hard to wrap my head around how a girl so obsessed with me and wanting to get married and be with me forever can go cold so fast. i don’t know if shes playing games or what but the fact that she just seems to not care anymore is a frightening and intense realization. it disgusts me thinking about her moving on and being a hoe. i already hooked up with a few girls and its been a few days but its just not the same. the truth about truth about trp is eye opening but scary.