Guys... I have lots of male friends and pretty much everytime I get the feeling that we make money, muscle gains, develop and so on so AT THE END we get the girl.

I know in reality it might not be true, but many of us base our self-worth on the fact do we have women beside us that want us sexually or not.

For me it's that way at least. I have money, recently I also had a big payday and still... I feel like I'm not complete when I don't have woman beside me.

I know my thinking is way blue-pill but I just don't feel the girls, I don't feel emotional connection to almost any girl, and for the ones I do, I develop oneitis.

It's pretty dark place, since after rejection me personally - I take it bad. I cannot understand why a woman that is supposed to be under me rejects me. I seem to not be able to find the happiness just by myself.

On the other hand I realize life is short, I'm 29 years old, I don't have so much more time left to be young and make good memories and I want to feel connection with the girl which almost never happens, but when it does... I'm being friend zoned.

I'm starting to feel that I'm actually looking more to be a FRIEND with a woman than to have sex with her all the time.

I know these stuff come off super blue-pill but how can I find happiness when I cannot share my home, money or success with other human being that stands beside me?