Hi guys. I'll try and keep this as short and sweet as possible but bear with me, it will be difficult to squeeze 4 years into one text post. I discovered TRP a few months ago and have been reading every day. I'll come out and say I agree with about 80% of what this sub says/is about.

anyway, heres my issue. I had a gf and we dated for 4.5 years, broke up twice briefly during those years and about 4 months ago she broke up with me for a final time. Her reason was that she had always had a bf since the time she was 12 and wanted to figure out who she was and how to be happy with herself. it's worth mentioning that she told me that she had no interest in dating/fucking other guys and swore up and down and as far as i know this is still true. it's also worth noting that she has always been truthful throughout our relationship.

okay another important bit of info. Last year, she slept with a good friend of mine, cheated on me yes. The ex friend of mine got her drunk and after a bit of coercing they fucked. After that night she told me immediately in a state of shock couldn't believe what she'd done. She always said cheating was something she would never do but she did. After a few days of talking and drama she told me she was positive she wanted to be with me forever and would never screw up again. I took her back. But then fast forward to about a year later and she broke up with me for the reason stated above. She has mentioned that she is hopeful we get back together someday when she's figured life out but she doesn't want me to put my life on hold for her.

okay wrapping up here- all you guys need to know is that I love this girl more than I ever thought i was capable of loving someone. We have been through everything together including a severe car accident which left her hospitalized for months and i almost watched her die.

my question is, based on the break ups and cheating should i just give up on her? i know the obvious answer but I feel now with my red pill knowledge if we were to get back together perhaps with my new ideology we would stay together.

it's also worth noting that she fell in love with me first and has said countless times over the years how I was the one for her and how happy she was that I would eventually be her husband.

Guys i don't know how much more of this I can take. I don't want to try to get back with her if she will just break up with me again. She has daddy issues too, her dad was an asshole who never was there emotionally, didm;t even show up to the hospital after the car accident.

I love this girl in ways I can't possibly describe. I realize I'm blinded by this. What should I do?