I'm sexually retarded. Late 20s and my sex experience is visiting escorts 7 times this year. I got hard for 3 visits and penetrated pathetically. The rest I got nothing. I'm never horny and can't view myself as someone who's allowed to have sex. I'm so placid and a 'nice guy' when I'm with the escorts but never in any other part of my life.

I'm reading NMMNG for the 5th time now but I don't know where to look, I've read this all before. Had my T tested and I'm supposedly fine.

I think I've got a lot of 'shame' about being someone who wants to have sex. I've been convinced and convinced myself I shouldn't be sexual. What do I do?