Throwaway account and don't know if this is a question or a few moments to vent, because this is not shit I can share with my friends. We'll see how it turns out.

In any case, I'm a married guy (8 years), two young children, 34. Through the use of TRP, No More Mr. Nice Guy and Athol Kay's work I brought a marriage I was completely failing at, back from the brink of a divorce. My wife is a great mother, low partner count, attractive, and relatively low on the crazy scale. AWALT, I know, but she is defiantly LTR material. A lot of the issues in my marriage were my failure to lead, Nice guy bullshit, betaness, you name it. Marriage now is pretty amazing, Lots of sex, blow jobs, respect from my wife and kids... etc.

I'm running into some other dilemma's now, however. With the work on myself, lifting, posture, getting better socially, I've definitely increased my SMV a huge amount. Its noticeable everywhere I go. In most any room I'd say I'm a top 20% guy now in terms of dress, looks, shape and not give a fuck attitude, especially in the last year or so. The ladies be 'miring

With this increase in SMV, this has lead to many opportunities for me to step outside my marriage. It is amazing how forward some women are. I also keep some light dread game in my pocket. I flirt and am friendly with attractive women. Gotta smell like fish to attract fish (or keep my current fish attracted) right. But I haven't been shit tested since my changes to really have to do anything more drastic then that.

In a couple cases I have cheated. I never slept with another woman since I've been married (more likely due to the fact that there were logistics, rather then my being a saint and stopping myself in the moment), but my will power failed me in a couple of instances in my recent history. Making out for the most part. One time it was the woman that was the seducer, in the second, I did more of the initiating.

I've spent a lot of time in the last month or two looking at the direction I am going because of these events. Do I want to fool around... have a mistress or have something on the side? Is it worth the risk... is that what I want in my life? Do I watch Mad Men too much?

If I determine it isn't, what do I need to do to get better at dealing with this temptation.

I definitely don't want a divorce or separation. I want to provide my kids with a stable two parent household. That is number one one my personal priority list. I am very much struggling with the large amount of temptation my new increase in SMV have provided to me.

Prior to marriage, I wasn't a virgin, my own count is in the teens, so I did relatively ok with women. Don't know if that is relevant, but I think to myself sometimes is this me just trying to relive hooking up with multiple girls. The quality (in terms of physical attractiveness) of ladies now that are sending signals is obviously much higher.

I don't know. Any others out there in LTR's, marriages that they want to keep having trouble with the new founds attractiveness that self improvement has brought?