Why is it returning?

When I first started reading RP I was super curious. I internalized a lot of knowledge. Then a depression-esque phase hit...the feeling that I just couldn't be bothered with women at all, and that it just wasn't worth it - I was letting my fears rule me.

That subsided, but the realization that my summer holidays are coming to an end and that I'm returning to University for my second year is bringing back this depression-esque phase. The feeling of ''I can't be bothered with this shit'' has returned.

I know for a fact this pessimistic attitude isn't going to do me any favors when I return.

But the RP knowledge + the fact that my friends are going to shit-test me to oblivion because there will be a 'new me' is really making me lose enthusiasm.

What do I do?