Looking for some more RP advice on how to start to recover from my multi-year depression, and start feeling remotely human. Some background first.

High School Senior, been depressed for ~5 years, been gradually getting worse. emotions have little place in my current mental state, and work has become much more difficult to do. I'm rather smart, I just know I can do much better if I was past this depression. I work out regularly, part of the football team, but have little time to do much but go to school, practice, and sleep. Only reason I haven't committed suicide is my knowledge that I'd be throwing my life away.

Still, I'm stuck, not ending it, but getting worse. RP has helped seriously over the past year and a half, and I'm hoping for a bit of advice.