I am depressed. Digesting the red pill, lifting, good income, spinning plates - but I am still depressed. I am on Zoloft for over a year now, but it still doesn't go away.

Sometimes I force myself to go to the gym, not to feel bad. Sometimes after doing so, I feel even worse.

All I want to do is lay down and do nothing. And when I do nothing I feel I am wasting my life and I get depressed. But neither want to do anything.

I don't know what I want. It sounds pretty stupid overall, but that simple stupidity is what drives me crazy and brings me down.

How to get out of this? It's so lonely and depressing, even though everything is going good.