(Throwaway for obvious reasons)

I was edging while masturbating and somehow pulled a muscle or something, causing me to go soft and also to not be able to get hard anymore. It's been a little over a month and I'm panicking at this point. I thought it would get better on its own but it hasn't yet.

I don't have insurance, that's why I haven't been to the doctor. Also, I'm too embarrassed to explain that to a doc, if I'm being honest.

My LTR (I know, I know) is getting mad because we haven't fucked in over a month and had a deadbedroom for about 6 months before this even happened because of ED (I was trying to fix my ED by learning to last longer but instead broke my penis in the process).

I think she's going to leave me or cheat on me if I don't fix this soon. She said broken dick was the last straw and doesn't really believe me that it broke, she thinks I'm making it up to get out of having sex with her.

She's not being supportive of me through my ED issues and now this issue, too. She's just mad at me and hamsters her anger as being "sexually frustrated".

AWALT.

But either way, I need to fix my dick because if she does leave, I need to be able to fuck the next girl.

What do I do?

TL;DR: broke dick while edging after 6 month deadbedroom, can't get erection and LTR will leave or cheat if I don't fix both problems. What do I do?