So I've been on a vacation with my bros for a week now. Second night here I got a text from my 'LTR' (we're exclusive but haven't had the talk) around 5 am out of no where she she said that if I do something with another girl while here we'll end things. I replied something like 'Of course I won't do anything like that while here, just like I wouldn't tolerate you being with another guy, and I'm the last person to tolerate that kind of shit'. She just replied with 'Okay' and went to sleep. I sent her a message that where I said 'Put some trust on me, I'm not a fucking clown' to which she replied in the morning 'I'm sorry I trust you and definitely don't think you're a clown. That was just a text I sent half asleep sorry:('. I just replied 'It's okay' and things went normal.

The next few days went like normal, she did some small shit tests that irritated me but I passed them quite well and she did lots of comfort tests and texted me things like how much she missed me. Anyways the 5th or 6th night here out of no where she just texts me along the lines "A bit disturbing when some 30-year-old guys just stare me when I train and when I pass by 'accidentally' touch me (laughingcrying emoji)". At this point I was a bit drunk, like I had been for the past 4 days and in my feelings since I had just heard that my grandfather had been sent to hospital and he was in critical condition. So I didn't know what to think of this, I just thought to myself that she's purely shit testing me and enjoying seeing these grown ass men looking at her and now she's trying to make me jealous.

So I just reply 'Oh' and she replies 'You seem to care' which set me off. I sent her a long message where I basically told her that 'I know that you get attention but I don't want to or need hear about it. I feel like you and I are not on the same level when it comes to maturity if you feel the need to start fucking around with that kind of stupid shit looking for a reaction out of me. That's just really disrespectful towards me that I should tolerate that kind of shit. I can't even go on for a day without you trying to create pointless drama'.

After that text she replied something and then called me saying that she looking for a reaction was definitely not the case. She told me that I need to say if something bothers me about her and that she only told me about the thing since she felt it was really disturbing. I backed off and told her that I probably overreacted and told her that there's been enough stress back home so I'm not in my right mind. She said that she understands and that I need to share these kinds of things with her etc. Anyways I moved the conversation forward from there lightened up the mood and asked how her day had been and stuff and we ended the call on good terms.

However afterwards I felt really shitty about myself. This girl hasn't really disrespected me before in anyway and has been really good to be and I pull this tantrum when she just wants to feel herself safe. I got really mad at myself for reacting like this and at the guys doing this kind of shit because I can only imagine how it feels like for a 17-year-old girl.

Anyways to the bottom line, did I lose my frame when I bursted out like this and also almost broke down on the phone when telling her about my grandpa?