Hello. I recently started to digest red pill and I feel like my stomach squeeze, I feel like I want to puke when I see things around me, the people, how everything works etc. I wonder If I'm not getting depressed. Did anyone was shocked like that? I feel really bad and I want to puke, I started to see things why my mom and dad divorced, how I was blue pilled by mom and system all my life, that she was the bitch and not my dad and I feel sorry for my dad that he had to see his own son being against him. Being 'clueless', too serious, pointing out everything literally. I just fucking hate myself for that. I feel weak and I kind of want somebody to give me blue pill again but I know it won't happen ever again. The red pill started digesting. Did anyone had similar symptoms like me?

I'm basically extremely disappointed with my life I had till couple days ago. How did You handle it?

I'm sorry for spellings etc. English is not my native language and I'm still learning.

Cheers.