Hey AskTRP - been following the RP for about two years, had an account, made a few posts, but can't remember my login so I made a new one to post this.

A lot has changed in my life over the past 2 or 3 years. Most for better - I've moved out of the US, have a job that commands high respect, travel internationally, work out regularly, and have a multitude of hobbies I excel at.

When I first found TRP I went through a phase of non-stop Tinder and OkC. I look back on that time with utter disgust - think of the amount of sacrifice we make working out, working hard, approaching women, and then settling for some reasonable looking girl on Tinder with next to no redeemable personality traits? In short, it took me about 30 lays to realize this, but I've become a quality over quantity type of man.

After I moved to Asia, I had a few plates. One stuck out - she made big efforts to please me and was an all around great girl. Close to her family, commitment and marriage minded, and by her account -I was the first guy she had ever "hooked up" with out side of a serious, marriage-tracked relationship. Long story short, I plated her for about 5-6 months before making her my gf.

I kept her at a distance because I wanted to be pleasantly surprised, and am only interested in relationships if the girl is truly top notch. I should mention that she is a minor celebrity and has tens of thousands of followers on social media, which, although her inbox and orbiter resources seem infinite, somehow I've managed to keep some level of dread constant thru our relationship (the same weekend I got her number, I hooked up with her extremely hot literal supermodel friend)

She never once flaked, always responded to texts within minutes, and never hinted at a relationship with me due to how "cold" and "distant" I was. She figured it was an impossibility.

About a month later she drops the "I love you" and I grin, telling her, I told you you'd say it first. (Early on she had assured me every guy falls for her first - but that doesn't mean much when its marriage proposals from Asian fanboys offering to buy her flowers and worship her)

Damn, I wanted this to be short, but it's getting longer by the sentence... Anyway, one aspect about her I really, really admire, is despite the 10000s of likes, messages, and bullshit. She NEVER brags about it, talks about orbiters condescendingly, or takes advantage of them. She prays regularly and is thankful for the position she's been born into due to looks and social factors.

Now, over the course of the year we've had very few problems. Most caused by her and as you can imagine I've had to swat away an insane amount of dreadgame that she runs, and deal with the inordinate amount of attention/affection she needs. Shes the only girl I've ever "loved" outside my toxic oneitis 10 years ago. We used to spend days/hours just staring at eachother. This past week has been the first time in a YEAR that I've felt annoyed/drained/or that something is different by her.

** I want insight into this situation** Recently, something feels a bit off. She keeps pushing out drama that seems like comfort tests - but I could be wrong. She talks a lot about how I "never get jealous" or that I "am not the possessive type."

Between you and me, I do get jealous, but I know that a display of jealousy would ultimately hurt my TRP frame in the long run - it would be a show of insecurity. I usually spin it on her and say something along the lines of "the wife of Ceasar should be above suspicion." I sense she is intentionally trying to provoke jealousy from me and I haven't figured a way to solve these sort of tests that aren't lose-lose/zero sum for me.

This happened before when early in our relationship she had a way too forward personal trainer. "Unbeknownst" to her the guy was running masterful text game in his fitness chatgroup. Long story short I thought she was texting too much, seemed inappropriate, and told her from experience the dude is trying to bang her or her friends. She agreed, and said she'd quit.

That took about a week, and when I saw she was still texting, I got a bit pissed. I saved myself from yelling, and spun it around dreading her with stories about how some hot female acquaintances have joined the gym I go to, and asked the manager when I usually come so they can surprise me "isn't that soooo creepy baby? Can you believe girls do that? ;) "

She tried to get me to QUIT my gym -because she was uncomfortable any GIRL may be there. She tried to throw away my tank tops so that I could only wear T shirts to the gym (guess I've really got that dread down...) And I smiled, invited her to join me, and we had a great workout and bonded. Course of the ship righted - but it was a big effort on my part.

The reason I illustrate this story is because 6 months later, I find myself having that similar feeling again that something isn't quite right, but I'm not sure how to handle it. Recently, she's been going on rants about how she wishes I was a virgin when we met and how I've "banged half the female population." She knows its ridiculous, and I just laugh off responses like "totally, AIDS is scared of me" or "hmm, too fuzzy to remember..."

After a few quips I'll pull her in, and say "you're my girl now." But it doesn't seem to stop her insecurity and I fear she may try to find it elsewhere. She claims emotional/physical cheating is disgusting and frequently speaks ill of friends who have found themselves looking for a side piece, and asks "what happened to loving ONE PERSON your entire life?" Did I find a unicorn or is her girl-game just that good?

She's never been secretive with her phone, I know the password to her computer, and I've never found anything suspicious. However, something feels off - maybe I'm just drained from dealing with the constant attention giving, but while in private she smothers me with affection and "I love yous" in public her body language is slightly distant, and she hasn't been texting me with as many emojis, !!! or nonstop BS girls usually do that I see her happily texting others.

Today and yesterday I've been a bit distant. I had an important event this morning that she spent all yesterday telling me shed love to come to it - but this morning radio silence from her. She didn't come and didn't even send me a good luck text. I'm used to getting 3-7 texts in a row of "I LOVE YOU, have a great day <3 <3 <3 and YOURE MINE MINE MINE!!!!!!" so her lack of punctuation and enthusiasm seems a bit out of character.

Yes - maybe I'm reading too much into it or am just too Machiavellian, but I've noticed and I want to know the best way to deal with this. She's been an amazing gf and I want the relationship to be as successful as possible. But I notice, consciously or unconsciously, she runs TRPesque game on ME and I'm not sure how to counteract it. Because I've made a conscious effort to be less callous I WAS STONE COLD when we first met - but dealing with these small jealously plays is leaving me feeling drained and unappreciated.