Me right now:

  • 25, bachelors working on masters (2 night classes a week)
    • Working part-time job 30 hours/week and looking for first career job.
  • Trying to get my shit together in preparation for a career job; work out, meditate, no-fap, kill some bad habits, etc.
    • Living at home with parents LOL.

So I'm pretty damn busy. Either at work, at school, applying for jobs, or trying to do something to better myself.

This girl is a self-proclaimed GF. At some point she just started referring to me as her BF lol. When we were first "talking" I had my own place, and I was being a Tinder man-whore. I've had sex with 4 girls since her... then I moved back home and loss those plates for various reasons. So I just rolled with "ya whatever we're dating sure why not I got nothing better to do".

This isn't a "is she cheating on my b.c of x.y.z post" More of a, "I don't think I have time to even give a shit"?

She's like a 6.5/10 to me, curvy body type (I honestly prefer petite), decent job, likes to show a lot of affection. It's good in the since that it gives me something to do when I have free time, and a couple of holes to play with lol. But, if I had a career job, my own place, etc (all things I hope to have in the next 6 months), I 95% wouldn't be with her, or she'd be plate status at best. Cruel but true...

Back to it... so I didn't really care enough to put any thought if she was cheating or not (plus I've "cheated" on her since she started seeing me as her BF so who am I to judge), but then the last couple of days I caught her in a lie and some other sketchy shit. Nothing 100% condemning in its self, but mix in a few other factors I don't feel like anyone would care enough to read and I'd say it's like 60/40 I'm getting "cucked".

And with that said... I'm not sure if I should even give a shit. I'm in a full get my life going mode, I'm with her because it's convenient; she splits outings 50/50 with me, we can bang at her place when her roommates not there (I live at home so this is a major plus), and overall just gives me some stress relief from time to time while I work on me.

Am I being a beta-bitch by thinking this way? I mean, if she is cheating I'd be more angry about passing a cute DTF college girl (damn 8/10, one of the hottest girls I've had a 100% to bang since post-grad) then "hurt" or anything else. I mean shit, if I knew she was it give me the reason I need to blow off doing stuff with her I don't feel like doing, but do anyway just to keep her happy (like going out after I worked 8 hours and went to school for 3 hours).

Yeah ok, I think I explained it enough. I respect the shit out of TRP and wonder what yalls mind set would be in a similar spot. I'm heavily leaning towards "I don't have the time or stress threshold to even give a shit, keep banging and hanging when it works to my advantage, work on me till I can move on with my life". Can't tell if that's Alpha or Beta AF?