Horrible genetics: Hard to gain muscle, easy to gain fat, big ears, big nose, big eyes, 4 wisdom tooth huge af and horizontal so my teeth are incredibly crooked (fixing them atm but will take 3 more years at least), due to crooked teeth my bottom lip is protuding a bit out and kinda crooked to the side, this all plus jaw is not symmetrical cause of teeth also. Im fixing all of this but it takes time.

My parents never really cared, and neither did I. Only when I found TRP at 19 was when I decided I would give a try at life, so instead of incel monster I now AT LEAST categorize as average after 2 years of progress, I have friends, I see some girls are curious about me because I got a swagger to myself due to my natural idgaf funny personality, I got fashion, hair and beard dope and on point. But all of this I feel doesnt make up to bad posture with skinny fat body with bad face. Sure I got awesome problem solving skills, epic at organizing stuff and I adapt VERY quickly at new environments, I self-learn a lot of stuff and when I focus on something it gets fucking done. I got a lot of good shit going for me. Im on a good path for a epic college degree, I got good friends, im on europe but got my godmother at New fucking York and visit there 1 month per year and all my peers get butthurt af, but deep inside I feel unworthy still. I got low SMV. As you can assume from above all of this plus until 19 being a pure incel I have incredible low confidence. Im still a virgin. But not because of lack of shots. I spent 2 years on TRP a lot so I can talk the talk, but I cant seem to walk the walk. This year gamed one of the 2 girls I ever gamed and she dated me for 6 months, every date she gave me IOIs to kiss her, to fuck her brains out, I PUSSIED OUT EVERY SINGLE ONE, I cried at night about it, but I feel like seeing her go away and feeling the pain, the regret was a big part in mental maturing. Anyway, I feel like I got shitty SMV. And all the stares I get from women are cause im ugly af. Sure I got game and can game girls, sure I know how to make them interested. But I never have my foot in the door and due to my low confidence I cant seem to put my foot in the door, and the few times I pushed myself into it I wasnt able to close the deal leaving the girl and myself frustated af, so im just not sure what my next goal should be honestly....

I had the goal of: Being present in girls radars and manage to spike their interest in getting at least a date with them or for them to reply to me. But now i've got more, I was actually able to close but I didnt because I wanst ready for it. Im a 21 year old virgin, I had a lot of shit in my life, I was dealt a bad hand but worked my ass off the last 2 years to at least reach this spot. Yet im stuck here for some time now and need some guidance please.