Long POST

Background: Currently have 4 spinning plates and open to an LTR if I see potential. Anyways, I've been fucking one of them since January. Always has her hands on me, can't take her eyes off me, gives her body up generously and is always available when I want to fuck. She's loosely part of my social circle from an old job. We'll call her "S".

Last night I went out to eat with those old friends and she got invited (not by me). I had seen her earlier in the the day and fucked her about 6 hours before we went out (ran into her by chance and smashed in a public restroom). Time comes for us to meet up after work and we meet up outside my place of work. S is there with the guy who invited her as she gave him a ride.

I had invited my brother (we're TWINS) to come as well as we don't really hang out much anymore. I greet him and give him a hug before we both approach S's car. S doesn't acknowledge me at all. Eyes are glued to my twin brother and she's only talking to him. She's told me before that they've hung out but haven't anymore. Whatever, but I do make a mental note of it. Number 1

I ride my Harley over while the rest drive themselves. I park on the curb and start taking off my gear while they look for parking. My friends come over to wait for me while S and my brother enter the restaurant and leave us hanging so they can sit next to each other. Mental note number 2.

At this point I'm having a blast with my friends and haven't paid attention to her at all. I'd like to thank Chateau for the reminder that betas mate guard while alphas disregard. I did notice that with all the bullshit we were talking to each other we just naturally gravitated away from the 2. I started to feel relieved that I didn't have to be the one sitting there listening to her chirp lol. Sorry bro lol.

Anyways a couple hours go by and they join us as we're standing at this point talking loudly and laughing. I bumped in to her by accident throwing my food away. I was feeling playful so I started teasing her and tickling. Ended up being just us two as we branched off. S is giggly and laughing, so am I as I thought I was just making a big deal outta everything. When in doubt, chill out. However I did notice that when I would touch her arm or her stomach like usual she'd pull back, look to the side with a weird smile and shoot her eyes over to my brother. This was out of the ordinary. Mental note 3

She ended up actually walking away from me to go back to my brother's side. Number 4 No hurt feelings. Whatever. I just stayed where I was to take a minute for myself. Then my phone vibrates. One of my other plates is super horny and wants to see me BAD. She calls me and I walk off to talk dirty and set up plans to meet after the dinner. I'm in a very good mood at this point. I end the phone call and begin texting her where to meet me away from the group. Lo and behold.... S walks back from my brother and comes over to me.

I'm horny at this point being interested in plate #2 and I felt distant towards S while she's trying to talk to me. S actually called me out on why I'm so far away as the whole time she was talking to me, I was getting bored and hadn't noticed myself physically making small steps away from her. I playfully tell her to come closer and she does after asking why and me repeating "come." She's staring up at me and I make my decision to leave so I just smirked to myself. Told her I had plans and when asked what do you have going on so late I replied with "mini golf" and a smirk.

Told everyone see you later and gave her a quick hug last and left to smash my other plate.

With all that being said the reason for this post is I have feelings for S and I will make no excuses for it.

I need help understanding both myself and how to improve.

How would you describe my actions from the details of my night? Butthurt, handled well, she's just a plate....? What do her actions say about the current state of things? How should I proceed with this mini relationship? What would you have done and the reasons behind your actions?

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