I seem to be more reactive than others. When something happens, I get either angry or sad, and i have these constant, ruminating thoughts of my emotionally abusive childhood and how socially inept i was/ still might be. Whats even worse is that people can pick up on it. they can see it on my face and people start asking if I’m good and start looking at me differently. It draws lots of negative attention. It affects my frame and i can’t get any wins under my belt to improve my confidence. I don’t know what it is, I seem to experience emotions stronger than others maybe. I have struggled with this a lot and can’t seem to control it. I can’t just “ignore” someone if they’re are putting me down constantly, i just want to murder them. I lost frame with a girl at my job today Infront of all the other girls and now I just want to quit (in getting an internship soon so i will probably quit anyway and work at a different store if necessary as i have the qualifications),

I’m not trying to give you a sob story I’m just trying give context and tell you guys where I’m coming from. Trust me, i hate sympathy, its patronizing.