I read this on the main trp all the time, some dudes barely starting gym, some minor achievements and yet they feel some overwhelming motivation/confidence. This is not meant to stop their grind, its just my genuine curiosity. Myself, I barely feel good for longer than a couple of hours.

I go 5-6x to the gym a week, train on bars partly and quick home workouts. I'd rather be honest than delusional when it comes to me in particular. I don't feel that sense of achievement in anything, regardless how good i do something. I remember one time when i saw my paycheck, which was pretty huge, considering it was my first job ever and it was almost 3x than the average wage, still felt nothing than a short 2-3 min excitement. I want to build consistency in my life, pride, interest, self-appreciation, drive.

It feels like i'm a spoiled kid, douche or someone who's afraid to do anything, but my brain (I) just don't care about other people, they sound uninteresting and the majority of the time its just the same problems or achievements over and over again. It sounds like i'm comparing myself to them in a way. I could've definitely left this in my thoughts as I know it might be just "the voice" speaking bullshit again, but i rather check if someone else has gone through this, or anyone else in that matter has dealt with such a thing before. Don't save your jitters, we're all men here and we all can take the truth, regardless how tight your butthole is.

EDIT: I think its alright to have this here, mostly because at this moment i'm super sleepy and i guess this is really how it feels deep inside. Its good to see what an irrational me thinks. Can't wait to wake up and see your guy's replies, probably have a lil laugh at this as well.