I was introduced to trp son 2 years ago and have tried to implement it with not much success. I have lifted consistently and read the sidebar and countless posts of how people start spinning plates upon discovering trp. How the hell do people get to that stage when I can't even get it once.

Lifting hasn't done much for confidence other than getting more attention from girls, but any attempt at anything once I muster enough courage (usually dutch) always ends in nothing. Its my anxiety and predisposition to failure that prevents me from doing anything. Again this summer I was surrounded by HB's at a summer job where colleagues were banging left and right and this is the second summer I go home with nothing again, knowing that these girls hooked up with other guys.

I've been on and off depressed and this is a major factor for self esteem. I have anxiety and it takes me about an hour to even go out to the local bars, but I live in a small town so there isn't much chance of finding anyone anyway here.

I don't know how to even get a life, and I've put off another year of college because I was too depressed. I'm up and about now, but its too late for that, so I don't have much choice other than find another mundane job to fill the year.

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I get matches on tinder but don't know what to do. Drive into the nearest city for coffee to meet up. then what? So basically I'm a gymcel the last 2 years and its killing me. Trp says lift. But what was the point, to be the jacked guy on site who cant get laid? All I can think about is the missed opportunities I've had with girls, and I don't know how to get over it when I dont see any improvement down the line. I want to live some civilian life and be young and have flings and relationships before I go to the military, but hell, how will I even cope with this monkey on my back.

I guess I'm stuck to making posts like this every few months.