I've been redpilled for quite some time now, or so I thought.

Met this girl a couple weeks ago. Super submissive, she does whatever I tell her to.

Can't fuck her yet because of the quarantine, but we text and she sends me pics.

Couple days ago, I suddenly started to care about her approval and validation. I think I got addicted to the love and attention she would give me. I used to be super iDGAF with her, and she loved it. I was a complete asshole and she loved every second of it.

I went full beta today while texting her and I'm pissed at myself. Made things awkward. I hate that I care now. I want to go back to that complete IDGAF freedom, where I didn't give a shit about the outcome.

What do i need to do to get back to that mental place boys?