im always here, crying about this girl showing IOI then ignoring, does this mean that if I calculate the trajectory of the wind on that hour she wants to suck my dick and I have to say "magic word here" to make her open her legs?

Then I look to myself in the mirror, realized I have improved a lot but since I was below-average before, I now am average and I am expecting people to treat me like a 10 just because instead of playing video games 10 hours a day, I now only play 7.

I realized that im skinny fat, not hot abs. My face is below average due to crooked teeth (fixing them atm!) and I expect bitches to give me IOIs then I feel sad. I dont have a good personality, im giving off a bad vibe and making people think I hate them, I never approached a girl ever yet im acting like I know everything in the book.

I expect bitches to be falling for me yet I am just like I was before except for my slight improvment and life experience. I need a wake up call to stop wasting my life.

Im 20 years old virgin, had a girl give herself in a platter to me and I managed to fuck it up, I dont have the balls to close the deal with a girl that I know wants to suck my dick hard, I dont have the balls to make people stop walking over me, im a wreck.

I always think im above others when actually im not even at their level, im below in some way. I come here asking for help to just feel like "hey, I know how to do this now. Now sit back and relax for a week, you earned it for crying online and someone actually helping you." I need to wake the fuck up and start doing shit, the problem is I always end up here crying like I am right now.

I feel like I always need to type this posts to then feel better but I just do fuck all the whole day saying "ah, tomorow i'll do it" and then cry when I message a girl that I rejected asking why she rejecting me, I cringe at myself