I am a Freshman in college. I have been hooking up with hot girls in my first weeks of college. I have always worn a condom. I quit jacking off this summer, but the sex hasn't ever been as physically stimulating as jacking off. The pleasure I have experienced has mainly been from making her cum, the fulfillment of being worshiped, being able to dominate her, and trying different stuff out.

Last night I was hooking up with this stunning party girl who hit me up on tinder after she saw me at a party at my college. We had both been competitive chess players, so we played chess in her dorm and ended up hooking up. I managed to cum once with a condom, but then on round 2, she had to suck me off. Round three, she was riding me. I told her I was bored so we just cuddled for a while. Finally, we are making out, and she wanted me to fuck her bareback. I said no. We started fucking with a condom, but she tells me she got tested in June and is clean. She showed me that she was on the pill. I decided, "fuck it" and went bareback. I actually enjoyed the sex that time. We did it one more time bareback. Both times were more intimate and hot.

Now, I don't know what the point of sex is with a condom. It is fun sometimes, but nothing like the feeling without one. Still, I am nervous today about my decisions.

I don't know what to do. I don't like the idea of continuing to fuck without a condom. I also don't like the idea of a monogamous relationship. To be honest though, I would rather go monogamous with someone than continue to have unsatisfying sex knowing there is better out there. What should I do?