TL;DR: I have a small dick and premature ejaculation (physiological - oversensitive penis), only solution is to use delay spray/gel or condoms. Is that beta? How can I make it look ALPHA?

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Hey everyone, long story short: I'm still in the process of focusing on what I can control, and trying to deal with the motherfucker cards our fucking mother nature gave me. So.. as far as I know is a MUST to fuck her good (making her have great sex), I've been trying to master everything that's under my control (fingering, oral, kinks, etc. Even doing tons of exercises/routines to prolong ejaculation but 0 success) and I have more issues (yes, my small penis and baldness was putting me already in the worst position I could be, well, surprise, I was diagnosed today with PE but as a physiological problem, amazing!!!! more shit to deal with). The question is: what can I do to be alpha with all that fucking shit that I have to handle? is using these things beta? (I ask because women could say: 'haha this stupid guy can't control ejaculation' 'haha I'm the one in control in the relationship' 'how useless his dick is'. It isn't an option to just hide it because I must apply the gel/spray like 5 min before intercourse, same with the condoms, she will see the package. And there aren't more solutions). I'm starting to believe I'm conditioned to be a fucking stupid beta and TRP isn't for me, I won't be able to play with an abundance mindset because she will know it's fake, no girls want small dick + baldness + PE, she will think she is doing me a favor by sleeping with me. I'm thinking in shifting my strategy and play the beta, being OK with red flags, with girls cheating on me and using me, maybe that's the price to pay for being fucked in genetics :/ at least thanks to TRP I know what's gonna happen and what my place is in this fucking world, thanks motherfucker God/nature/or whatever motherfucker gave me this motherfucker genetics. Go and fuck yourself for making me so fucking useless as a male. Thanks!!!!! (sorry for being so rude, I'm really depressed for being conditioned to all this shit, I've been trying to do the best of me in monk mode but sadly there are stuff I can't handle nor change that puts me in the lower levels of the sexual marketplace).

Thanks for all the support you always give me guys. Best of luck.