I dated a girl for about 2.5 years and really did enjoy spending time with her in the beginning. We grew really close, did the love thing. It got to be the point where we were together so much that I naturally, tried to find time apart. I would tell her to go out with her friends instead of hang out with me. That leads to me always trying to be apart so I can breath a little and do what I want.

  I started to get a small feeling like I was beginning to be trapped in the relationship. (i know that's ridiculous and i could've ended whenever but like i said we were really close) she picked up on this and during the last months of our relationship she kept giving me an ultimatum that she would leave if I didn't begin to show interest. So I let that play out and we broke up. I was kinda happy because of the whole trapped feeling being gone and I finally had an unlimited supply of my sought after freedom.

  I was pretty much the definition of mixed emotions. Happy to have my freedom, but upset about it. I'm an optimistic guy so I focus on the freedom and continue to be content with my choice. When I say freedom I'm just talking about doing what I want, not necessarily having sex with other women. After being in such a long relationship, I couldn't even think about starting another one so I didn't really try to meet anyone else

  For some context, its been 2.5 years since we broke up. We've seen each other every now and again and we usually pick up where we were in the beginning of our relationship. For the first 2 years I've always had this mental note/rule in my head to not get in a relationship again due to prior experience. She waited around for me to ask her again but after two years she got another boyfriend. Problem is now, that mental note is like gone. I'm not sure why, but I can't stop thinking about her. I can remember my rule and the trapped feeling, but I don't remember what it feels like. I'm not sure if that makes any sense. Is this normal? My crazy self wants to try and restart a relationship that I know with about 90% certainty it would end up being the same. I just found TRP today. Thanks to anyone who reads all this.

  summary: dated a girl for 2.5 years, broke up because we spent too much time together, relatively enjoyed my freedom for two years, now having second(crazy) thoughts