Have been spinning 3 plates the last 7 months or so. Been really enjoying my time with one, easily the hottest one and best personality. Barely see my other plates purely out of favoritism. Essentially only have one plate now (yeah she’s not a plate if she’s my only one, fine). The other day she sent me long paragraphs about how she doesn’t want to waste her time, can’t do the FWB thing much longer, wants a relationship. I had her over today, told her I don’t want a serious relationship right now, I don’t want to waste her time but I enjoy what we have and don’t want to ruin it. Textbook ‘Handling the talk’.

There was tears etc but I held frame and stood by what I said. I walked her to the bus stop and kissed her goodnight. I don’t know why, before I didn’t really give a shit about plates breaking. I can of course live with this one breaking, but also feel kind of shit. Honestly I’d kinda like to give a relationship with her a shot. I do like her. I want her exclusive to me. At the same time, I’m afraid this may be oneitis talking. Could giving a relationship a shot be a shit deal? Is it better to let the plate break and continue? Kind of can’t think about this properly.

I lift already.