I'm in a very toxic situation: no matter what, in my circle I have no positive reinforcement: the same actions a member of the group does are praised by other people, whereas mine don't. Adding that my group of friends has few interactions with women, I do not have a pool of women with whom exercise TRP. I also can't stand out as a "leader" because my achievements are ignored, and asserting myself only works to avoid pranks. In short, in this group I'm not the alpha because I can't lead, I'm not a beta, because I don't follow and I'm not an omega because I don't get shitted on. It's like I'm not even completely there. What do?