I just met my ex-gf, the one that one year ago hurt me so badly and led me to RP. We just exchanged a few irrelevant words (no more than 30 secs). My whole body reacted in panic, I could feel my legs weak afterwards. Why am I still afraid of this person? I would like to laugh it off and apply Amused Mastery with her - my SMV is higher than hers and my whole life has really got a lot better since, while from what I hear hers is shittier, so I should have all the reasons to. It should come easy. Yet when I see her I react like a pussy.

To be clear, it was a really short relationship but it fucked me up royally, because I was in the shittiest place in my life when we got together and used her as emotional crutch. I was unbelievably supplicant and pedestalled her - she eventually broke up with me literally because I was giving her too much attention (her words).