Hello all,

I recently started reading The Red Pill today based on a friend's recommendation, and I'm asking for your help. I have an issue with a girl.

Some context: I am a white male, 6ft junior, lower tier of the "popular kids" at my school. I am the top student in my grade and play tennis at a high level. No social problems with friends or family, life is good, EXCEPT with...

... girls.

The story: I've never never hooked up with one, and this is turning into a problem. I usually host high school parties at my house, and 30+ people will come over and have a good time. Last November (2017), I started really liking this one girl in my grade. She's great: attractive, smart and we have the same interests and even want to go to the same university!

However, here's where my problem comes in. Rather than being a man about this situation, taking the lead and talk to her, I pussy out. She's also part of the lower tier of the popular kids (amongst girls). I talk to her friends, try to find out if she's into me. You know, the usual: trying to avoid rejection, as I've been friendzoned 8 times already (not a hyperbole - that's the exact number).

Back to the story. Her friends say she seems interested, and I launch a full-scale amorous enterprise. By this time, it is important to note, I become obsessed with her - she becomes everything to me, and I truly start suffering from what is known in this community as "oneitis". I talk to her everyday, things seem to be going well, but I'm always super nervous around her and sometimes the discussions seem forced. Gradually, she starts ignoring my texts, or answering unenthusiastically. I decide to take the leap of faith, and ask her out. The outcome? "Aww, that's so nice of you, but I'd prefer if we could just stay friends".

I'm broken. I become depressed, and life goes off track for about a month. I don't think about killing myself, but life gets pretty shitty (I still continue doing well in school, though) and I lose motivation for speaking to girls. I feel crushed. Sometime later (in February, I think), we even went to a party and I avoided her as best as possible. She ended up hooking up with some guy (her first kiss) while I stand there. I just feel like hanging myself.

Fast forward 5 months. It's April 20th, 2018 (yesterday as I'm writing). I get my buddies together to host a 4/20 party and half the grade ends up coming. And guess who comes over as well? The girl.

Now, at this point, I still find her hot, but I try not to seem obsessed like before (I just don't want to have my heart torn out and violated in front of my own eyes like last time). However, I take 2 shots for confidence, and go over and talk to her. We end up talking for around half and hour, and I feel a connection like never before. Her beautiful eyes capture my soul and I feel the same poetic feelings I had for her 5 months ago.

I decide to try my luck. We keep talking, and start getting closer. Unlike anytime before, I break the touch barrier. Suddenly, we're holding hands as I examine the finger she tells me she broke over spring break. We're laughing, having fun ... it's just great. It's 11:15 p.m. and she tells me she has to leave. I get her to talk to me a bit more, and I start caressing her in my arms. We dance. We stand there hugging for a while, and I promise to teach her some tennis some time soon. She puts on her coat and shoes and starts to leave, and as I lead her to her driver's Cadillac (she's rich, ok?), I stop her and ask for a kiss good-bye. That's exactly what I said. "What about a good-bye kiss?"

She starts squirming in my arms and says that she needs to go. Apparently her parents are really strict and the driver is looking at us. We hug and she leaves.

I wake up the next morning feeling like I awoke from a dream. No way I caressed the girl I held so dearly last night! All of my feelings start coming back, like water rushing through a dam. I remember that she told me something about how I should text her, to what I replied that she should actually answer this time (as a joke). She blushed and we laughed it off. Today, all I can think about is her.

RED PILL COMMUNITY PLEASE HELP ME. I need advice. Should I go for this girl? Did my confidence turn her on, or was she just trying to be nice last night? Should I text her? What do I say? How do I act around her at school (before, I avoided her as much as possible). Do I have a chance??? Last night was one of the best of my life. I played it cool, and even though we didn't hook up, at least I held her in my arms. If I get rejected by her, I don't think I'll be able to live... I'm simply too infatuated.

Thank you so much for your help.